All of them have played a role in ushering me into a place of mental wholeness, but some will not jump into the waters with me....I must be okay with this fact. You know, my heart aches right now. It hurts and the slightest touch causes a wince, but the mind is healthy. Never, have I ever had one healthy. The heart nor the mind. Both have been kicked, spat upon, hit and cut, which invited wiring glitches and sparks of insanity.
I do not know the right way or the correct answer all the time, but I do know that my mind is healthy and wholesome. Who knows what comes first? Should the mind be whole before the heart can be whole? Should the heart be whole before the mind can wrap itself around wholeness? For this one, the mind came first.
Now, I am deliberately choosing to guard that healthy place that my flesh and heart has fought for...setting up boundaries and cutting down whatever jeopardizes. I must keep my mind whole as I know it will be the invitation to the wholeness of my heart. I must protect my mind as it keeps me grounded amidst the pain swirling. I've never been here before!!! I must guard my mind and savor her journey to complete wholeness...
I am not accustomed to this map or this plan, but I like it! I am alive and my heart beats! I am breathing in wholeness...
Come savor this place with me!