Sometimes It Has To Be Enough that It Is Not Meant To Be!

She said,"Sometimes it has to be enough that it is not meant to be."

I paralyze myself again and again as I analyze over and over. Two weeks and no word. Where did I go wrong? What did I do or not do?

Two weeks and several days without a word... with today's abundant and contemporary channels of communication there should have been a blurp by now - better put...a text. Not even a text!

SHE MISSES HIM!

A phone call much to personal it seems...not even a phone call in the 'silent' of the night...a voicemail guaranteed and not even a phone call. She rolls her head over on the pillow...it is damp. Confused and broken as to what she could have done wrong? Where did she possibly go wrong? Two weeks and several days...no real emotional attachment. Why does this baffle her being? No real label yet it still hurts her.

SHE REALLY MISSES HIM!

Email!? Never an email expected. She is expectant upon Him, but not on the other that bestows this chaos. COMPROMISE 7! She discovers order in being expectant upon Him...she silently seeks. The flesh gnaws at her spirit! The pain penetrates the flesh, but the peace in order soothes her spirit. Two weeks and several days...No avenue of communication?!!!

SHE MISSES HIM A LOT!

Not much more than 'hanging out'...she misses this as if it were embellished with timely investments. No investments made! She misses this tremendously. Some wrong...some right! This that she speaks of delivered in a package of possible covenant...yet, so soon! She read these 'things' incorrectly. She assumed ashamedly! She felt like a princess precisely. It was too good to be true. He said, "You cannot tell me that anybody has ever treated you as sweet as I have?!?" She concurred. Maybe she should not have...

SHE JUST MISSES WHAT MIGHT NOT BE MEANT TO BE

Must she be at peace with this truth? Is it a truth? Is it guilt for possibly finding 'the too good to be true'? She must be bad for expressing this very thing. In naivety she blew it again. A princess she is...a princess - she longs to be cherished as she walks through all her days... eventually a Queen in covenant!!! Will this time come in her child-like honesty through faith or is she crazy? Her prince she seeks through pressing into the chaos by way of Him. Her prince she so desires. Is it not meant to be... no place to fit in, no time to be real, no person to accept a princess, no man to commit in love because she is 'not meant to be'.

SHE MISSES HIM MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS...SHE MISSES THE LAUGHTER...SHE MISSES THE TRUTH IN LOVE....SHE MISSES THE DIVINE DESTINY IN HIS BEING...SHE MISSES HIS SMILE....SHE MISSES HIS EYES...SHE MISSES HIS HUG...SHE MISSES HIS HEART TO LOVE...SHE MISSES HIS GRASP...SHE MISSES HIS GAZE...SHE MISSES HIS PALM ON HER THIGH...SHE MISSES HIS CHIVALRY...SHE MISSES HIS PRESENCE BEHIND HER...SHE MISSES HIS KISS...SHE MISSES HIS INNOCENCE...SHE MISSES HIS COMMITMENT TO LOVE...SHE MISSES HIS SIMPLICITY...SHE MISSES HIS COMPASSION...SHE MISSES HIS AMBITION FOR LIFE..SHE MISSES HIS ADVICE...SHE MISSES HIM IN HER LIFE!

Call her selfish, call her angry, label her crazy, reference her impatience.

SHE STILL MISSES HIM!